dr_conscience | [45th consult; voice]

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[45th consult; voice]

I suppose I should preface this by saying that I don't remember the specifics of any conversations I had, the last time I posted to the Network. If I did, I would be saying this personally to each individual I spoke to, but... well, I can only hope that anyone I did speak to will understand.

What I can say is that I am sincerely sorry to anyone I said anything at all rude or inappropriate to. I realize that I wasn't in control of my actions at the time, but I don't think that serves as adequate justification to simply not acknowledge that it happened. So if I said anything to you while under the influence of that... being, then I apologize.

[private to House]

We should go out... take advantage of the apparent lack of apocalyptic situations. I won't even push for karaoke.

[ooc: asdfasdsa I developed some con plague after Otakon please forgive spottiness/slowness, backtags will come <3]

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Nothing at all, actually. I think I'm a little disappointed, actually.

I can understand that - it's always frustrating, not knowing what's wrong, but... well, there are also any number of things that aren't treatable, even if you do know what they are.

But at least even when it's something untreatable, you still know what's wrong. You have some kind of proof that explains why you can't remember the guy you've worked with for five years and that you almost married him.

... that's true, but, you could have proof and no way of regaining those memories. Ruling things out is a necessary part of figuring out what actually is wrong.

I can't say that I understand how it feels to be missing things like that; to do so would be completely presumptuous and pandering, as I haven't gone through it, but... I'm sure it's more difficult than I could imagine. Just... try not to give up, alright?

[So much easier said than done, Wilson. As much as Angela looks on the bright side of things, this is one of those moments where the bright side is just as dull as everything else.]

But I would feel like with proof that sure, the slug put holes in my brain or gave me a tumor. That explains why I can't remember things past five minutes rather than some mysterious condition that no one can find.

[Yeah like he doesn't know that.]

I don't think you can assume that it's a mysterious condition no one can find, yet. One round of testing often isn't enough to find an answer, even if you're not in the City. And here, it could be any number of things that we wouldn't be able to detect, medically. Please, trust me when I say this is not over, nor is it necessarily a bad thing.

I know, Wilson, I know.

[Sigh.]

I'm trying to stay positive, but it's hard when you can't even remember how to do that. I'm just terrified.

I know you are, and... it's okay to be afraid, frustrated, angry, any way you want-- need to feel.

[There's his own quiet pause, before he speaks again, gently.]

I just don't want you giving up. That's all.

This place just makes it so hard. Sometimes, all I want to do is scream that enough is enough and that it wins and I won't fight anymore.

I think most of us have gotten to that point, even if we each take our own paths there.

Unfortunately, the City doesn't seem to care whether you're fighting it or not.

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