[19th consult; voice]

[dr_conscience]

You know, in a way it's almost nice to get some time to oneself. For instance, time away from friends who have no sense of personal boundaries, or to reflect upon the alarming alacrity with which one has adjusted to life in an alternate dimension.

What's actually nicer, of course, is making a conscious decision to spend time alone, and likewise, having the option to return to spending time with other people when one wishes to. Though, of course, that's hardly a new complaint here, is it? After all, the very fact that we're even here to begin with is a constant reminder of exactly how much free will we have, the extent to which we're actually in control of our situation...

It can be easy to forget, after going unaffected for a while, what the City is capable of. Which isn't to say that this is the worst, by any means, but... well, as I said, it does grant one some time to reflect upon things...

Well. At least there's only a few hours to go.

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[dr_conscience]

... funny, the Network seems fairly intact to me.

[worksmart.livejournal.com]

I mean, the post sounds like you're talking to yourself. And rambling.

[dr_conscience]

Probably because there isn't much else for me to do right now.

[worksmart.livejournal.com]

Reach any conclusions?

[dr_conscience]

Well, that could be rather difficult, depending on how one thinks of the City. This "curse" could be a hallucination, though if you're operating on the assumption that the City itself is a hallucination, then it's just another aspect of a larger one; a shift in the nature of it. If the City's real, another dimensional shift within an alternate dimension.

And, of course, as to the actual nature of the City, I doubt any of us have anything better to offer as alternatives other than "it's real" or "I'm a vegetable." Which... is rather difficult to tell from within, isn't it?

Right now I'm curious to see what happens at midnight... and whether anything I do here would affect the "true" City, whatever it is.

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[worksmart.livejournal.com]

One of the things I found hard to reconcile at Seminary was the idea of God giving free will within the confines of his divine plan. You can't blame Him for your missteps, they're yours to make. But if He knew you'd make them, and He never raised a hand to stop it?

The interventionist God at least claimed responsibility for His acts.

So as for free will, I'd say the structure isn't so different here. Can't pick what you're thrown into, only the way you respond. Vegetable or not, we're experiencing this. What we make of it, I guess, is up to us.

And you just want a chance to mess around without consequences.

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[dr_conscience]

Fair enough. So free will within or without of the City is basically the same, we're just thrown into far more ludicrous, invasive and occasionally sadistic situations. Which obviously isn't meant to imply that bad things don't happen, but we're not generally forced to kill people or wake up finding our memories altered or morals inverted.

And I'm not messing around without consequences. I'm not actually doing anything, though I am legitimately curious about whether anything done here would carry over.